I, a crazy idea, filled with the abyss’s subtle power
By chance was given birth by you. Earth and heaven
Then mingled into one. You called me woman.
You strengthened my body.
I am a white feather, soft as water
You hold me in your hand and I hold the world in mine.
Clothed in this earthly flesh, how dazzling I am
In the sunlight. You find this incredible.
I am a most tender, understanding woman.
I see through everything, accepting everything.
I yearn for winter, an immense dark night.
With the heart as the boundary I desire to hold your hand
But before you my poise is a tragic defeat.
When you walk away, my pain
Heaves out my heart.
To slay you with love, whose denial is this?
The sun rises for the whole world! For you
I fill your entire body, from head to toe,
With the most belligerent tenderness.
I have my formula.
A clamor of cries for help. Can a soul stretch out its arms?
With the oceans a bloodstream I would be raised
Beneath the feet of the setting sun. Does someone remember me?
What I remember, absolutely, is not merely one lifetime.
Monologues by Zhai Yongming~ 翟永明《独白》with English Translations