Telling the Innermost Feeling
Alone I went a thousand miles long, long ago
To serve in the army at the frontier.
Now to the fortress town in dream I could not go,
Outworn my sable coat of cavalier.
The foe not beaten back,
My hair no longer black,
My tears have flowed in vain.
Who could have thought that in this life I would remain
With a mountain-high aim
But an old mortal frame!
The poet is grieved not to have beaten back the invaders.
The lyric “Telling the Innermost Feeling” is a composition by Lu You, a writer of the Song Dynasty. This lyric recalls one of the most memorable years in the author’s life, and through the contrast between the present and the past, it reflects the difficult experiences and misfortunes of a patriotic aspirant, expressing the author’s grief and indignation that his ambition was not fulfilled and there was no way to serve his country. The first piece begins with a reminiscence of the author’s vigor in the past, followed by a description of his disappointment that his ambitions could only be realized in his dreams; the second piece expresses the lamentation that the enemy has not yet been destroyed but the hero is already late. The whole lyric is bleak and mournful, the language is clear and clear, the use of allusions is natural, without traces, without embellishments, like sighs and complaints, with a strong artistic impact.